Nothing yet

No response, though it’s just been three days. I do have this strange sense of calm that I wasn’t expecting. I’d been so worked up the past few weeks…do I send the message, do I not send it. Once I sent it, and after the initial wave of nausea passed, I felt better. It’s now out of my hands and up to my daughter whether and how she responds. It took me months to get to this point, so I’m not expecting her to think through it all so much quicker.

I have no idea if she’s even read it yet — Facebook doesn’t seem to have the same tracking system that MySpace does (and if it does PLEASE DON’T EXPLAIN IT TO ME! I’d rather live in ignorance on that one) so I don’t know if she’s picked up the message or visited my site.

Even though I’m not as anxious about it as I thought I’d be, it’s still hard not to wonder what she’s thinking. Is she drafting a response? Is she discussing it with her parents or friends? Are they pissed that I didn’t go through them as suggested in a comment? Has she deleted all the information because she just doesn’t care?

Or is she on some fabulous vacation and doesn’t regularly log on to Facebook? It is the summer, after all.

Maybe this inner peace I’m feeling is really just me protecting myself from potential rejection, but at least I’m getting through my days. And I’m seriously only checking e-mail a few times a day Thanks for the kind words everyone.

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